teenagers
i want to know how others cope if they have teenagers and
how they intrude on to your sexuality, even when obvious
signs are about, and how it makes you feel, as an adult....i
mean guilty, for wanting to also be a sexual creature....both
in the way of asking for privacy, even if not outright, but
by locking my door, playing music softly - its not that i
engage in intimacy while my children are about, but if they
come back to the home during this time, then it always spoils
things, i dont know how to broach it with them, as they dont
live with me, i have a lock on my bedroom door, i have asked
them at other moments (obviously) if they could equally
be discreet if they do return and i am "otherwise"
engaged, and still i feel the worst mum in the world...if
i ever thought my children were in this position i would
give them the privacy they needed. i feel hopelessly tied
to them, and they dont even live with me. its as if my children
are still defining when and where and the only other free
time i get is at the weekend..its beginning to hamper my
spontaneity - just in case as it were. also i have a very obnoxious
neighbour which also hampers me, if nothing else, psychologically
as she has immaturely commented before. i dont have money
or transport to be able to engage in intimacy in many other
places and surely i should be able to indulge myself without
feeling so hemmed in by constraints....silly i know, but
it is really bothering me now.
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