Taking the plunge
Ladies and Gentlemen, I am happily married to a guy I adore.
We've been married for twelve years and I still like
him. He wants to see me have sex with another man. (Actually,
he would really like to see me have sex with another woman
but I'm not comfortable with that. I'm dang near
homophobic about that, no offense. And he's straight
too.) I think about giving him his wish and I would love to
for my own personal satisfaction, but I am wondering how
I would feel about myself afterwards. Would I be able to
compartmentalize all the judgemental thoughts I'd
probably have about myself later, or would I actually relish
having a little secret from other people in everyday life?
Would I still respect him thinking he could "use"
me like this or give me to someone else? When we first talked
aobut doing this, I was deeply hurt that he could even think
about sharing me with someone else. I wondered if he even
loved me. (I do believe he does.) I could easily arrange
this- even have a guy in mind, but I am holding off because
I am ambivalent about possible consequences. Has anyone
here ever indulged a fantasy of this type, and what was your
experience afterward? Did you still like yourself or did
you feel regret? Thanks in advance for your thoughts.
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