Oh crap, now what do I do?
I'm a 38 year old woman of above average intelligence
and average looks I think. I'm in a marriage of 14 years
with one child. We've had a rocky relationship, violent
at times, he's very dependant on me. Last April he beat
me up and I left but in my stupidity I came back. Since that
time I just don't feel the same, he saw a counselor but
saw no need to continue because he feels he has no problem.
Anyway, I'm unhappy, I don't wear a wedding ring,
it feel off after the beating and I left it off. I found someone
who was attracted to me and I to him, we got involved and I
told him I was married, we agreed to just a nice sexual satisfaction
relationship. Unfortunately it became more, much more.
He asked how I felt about him and told me he loved me, I'd
been in love with him for some time. I probed a bit deeper
because we had agreed to just some good discreet sex, no
more, but he says that was before he knew me.
Now I don't know what the hell to do. I can see myself
leave my husband and live a different life but I don't
know. My lover and I agree that right now we have other relationships
though I think he may have stopped his and I've dropped
my other lover and have only my husband. I'm a little
naive in this area. Anybody with any wise words of advice?
Anyone want to damn me? I need some third party comments
to figure this one out. HELP!!!
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